3fucking months,

i still think about her. oh shaggy shit eh.

*snap of finger*

"letting you go now cos i can't go any further than this"

i'm totally alive again.(said that number of times)

i swear i won let this thing happen again.

soccer?

lottery?

one week of late nights.

feeling real shag.

i'm off today.

=)

currently waiting for yokie's call.

she is not yet back from her damn batam.

"nannie,we will go there tgth okay?things here are cheap"

guess she got stuck at there.

meeting zen at 5.15pm at tamp.

gotta get my arse ready now.

i..still love her.

stupid.

you're the reason why i'm living.

i still thinking of you.

damn it.

haven't been updating.

i'm getting worse and worse.

sigh.

i miss you.

times i feel like telling you that i don want to love you anymore.

times i feel like telling you that i don wish to see you again.

times i feel like telling you that i cannot go on anymore.

times i feel like telling you that i need to move on so badly.

but i can never bring myself to do this.

cos i i love you more than you can imagine.

is because i still want to be around you to see you safe and protect.

sweetie,is killing me now.

i cannot bear this anymore. i still wait and wait. but the thought of you and..

making me confuse.

what should i do now?

blame it on my fate.i shouldn't know you in the first place.

i shouldn't have fall in love with you if i know things turn like this.

i slash.

i cry.

i scream.

angry with myself.

how could i let this happen?

how could i lost you?

how could i be so stupid to let you go?

HAPPY TWENTIES BIRTHDAY TO YOU.


surprise was successful.
i'm glad and i hope this girl enjoy her night.
cos i've given all my best and effort in this wonderful party for her.
just be happy.
cliques played part.
cool.

woke up at one plus..
giddy spell.
coughing hard.
digging out for snack.
changed.
dressed.
out to cousin place.
parkway to meet mich,mei,veron,mabel,bao and jy.
then to sunset bay.
buddy,kia,joe and jer came.
running around and stuffs.
lightstick.
popper.
cake.
everything for mich.
ten humans squeezed in one car.hahas.
that's all.


-where've you been?i got no courage to speak to you.are you okay?
drop by your there few times,you wasn't there anymore.
searching for your friendly face.
=/

-i wish that you didn't lied.the pain came rushing to my heart when you become like this.


-living in denial.

how do i explain about this feeling?
not numb anymore?
hahs.
that is silly thing to think about it.
i couldn't sleep.
but to woke up in the middle of night to blog?
that damn shit hole luh.

i'm back to normal.

seriously and honestly..
touching my heart and while saying this..
i miss them alot.
hey friends,when you guys gotta get your ass and come out
and listen to what i say.

ARGH! i miss that girl too.
=)
i don know okay,
don keep asking me the same question whether i like her not?
all i can say,i think she is cute okay.

-grins-
i smile all day long cos of you.
if not for you,i don know how to smile again.
get well soon.

i don know what am i living for.
hahas.not falling in love so soon and not getting any stable RS.
think is all lies.
waste of time?
waste of effort?
waste of emotional?

speaking of how i met her.is was funny anyway.

last night i went supper with lola,veorn and mable.
the night before..went drinking with tuna,kc,cheryl.
tonight supper with kc,jolin and veron.

never get to see her.
is not that feeling that i had for this girl whom i just let go.
i dunno how to explain.
think i have a crush on her but on other hand,i'm trying to let the feeling fade.
dunno luh.

gotta busy with mich's bday preparation.
is gotta crazy and fun,

i know what i should.

cos you've never love me once before.

thank.